This is my last night in New York. It was a brief business trip but it was the first since the time where I sincerely cried out to God for help. To save me from sin and to run away from my lukewarmness.
It has been a little under 1 year since then, but looking back, God has trained me many ways and has strengthened me to become his soldier.
I’m in New York City where the place is always alive. There are always places to go, but, I’m here without any of my Christian friends, especially my wife. This only leads to temptation. After a hard days work, I could have easily taken off with workmates after dinner to go sight seeing and have fun til the early morning, but I chose to come back to my room, catch up on some business and personal work and prepare for the next day.
Now you may think that I am just very boring, but honestly, I don’t want to take chances getting tempted.
What temptation?
Like most guys, I’ve always been oblivious to my wandering eyes. By God’s grace and strength, I’m continually conquering it daily but the truth is, wandering eyes is a serious problem that holds men in a vice. We are led to believe that all men are visual, and we are, but that does not give us the privilege to look at everything.
I’ll open up and go into more details about my struggles and how I’m walking in truth in a series called Every Man’s Battle later on, but for now, it’s so wonderful that I am victorious in all things through Jesus.
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Alright Lukewarm, it’s been over a month since your last blog post! I was looking forward to reading more and you’ve left me hangin’! haha!
Seriously, I hope all is well!!
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Hi Abbie,
Sorry it has been a while. I’ve had problems with the site and have been focusing a lot of my energy on my main blog. Not to mention plenty of other things to keeping me busy. I will definitely try to get back into things.
I’m still keeping up with all the things your going through. Keep up the great work.
Haha! It’s quite alright! I completely understand being busy with other things. My blog has definitely suffered the brunt of my busyness-which is quite okay with me. I don’t want my relationships with my family or with God to have to bear that.
Mainly, just wanted to let you know that your blog posts are missed!
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As it happens, I am desperate to comprehend obedience to God and man…and in that order! I typed in my browser: “obedience to god’s authority” and clicked on your site.
Good stuff! But I have so much to learn. I’m 61 and have led an incredibly prideful, stubborn, unwilling walk — until recently. I’ve been unemployed for 2 years (with only part time work sprinkled in) and recently have been hired for ‘holiday hours’, which means I’ll be unemployed again after the holidays but am willing to surrender EVERYTHING to learn submission and obedience to God so that He will promote me into a full time position after the holiday timeframe expires. I have about six weeks to GET this!
One of my greatest roadblocks is my FEAR of everything to be feared: i.e., rejection, aloneness, lack of income, not being in God’s will (and most horribly — not DOING what God has already ordained for my life!!).
Family and friends and even spiritual acquaintances have suggested to me that REST and QUIETNESS are tantemount to faith, trust and obedience. Having been diagnosed with A.D.D. at 56 and ALWAYS having trouble staying focused also being able to cognitively think and comprehend whether in verbal communications but especially in reading, has caused me YEARS of struggle and misunderstanding.
Since 1980 when alcohol and drugs consumed my life, even though the Lord delivered me from the need for “substances”, confusion, discouragement and fear have “consumed” me. I’m reading more now and listen to christian radio music ALL THE TIME (as though I can’t sit quietly without my brain “tripping” into my past and those areas of unbelief! It is IMPERATIVE that I learn to TRUST, to OBEY, to SIT QUIETLY, to READ — I MUST DO! I don’t see how I can NOT DO SOMETHING to be acceptable and to be “promoted”. If I don’t respect authority over me (parents, husband, bosses) then God will NOT prosper or promote me. WHAT DO I DO? WHAT DO I NOT DO?
Kathy,
I’m not sure anything I say will be of help. I am living in a dry place at the moment with struggles that are beyond my control. I just want to tear out my hair with the issues I am going through at the moment.
In the midst of all this, I realised how weak I was. How low in faith I am. But there was revelation. Despite my sinful ways, I am yearning for God’s help. For his hand to touch my life and heart.
I haven’t been doing anything about it which is very hypocritical of me but satan is trying everything in his power to prevent me from reaching out to God, preventing me to cry out and seek Him.
To me, it’s in the form of being occupied with many other things. In your case, satan is using your fear against you.
You have nothing to fear. The typical “fear” emotion that we know as humans is not from God. If you had to sum up the Bible in 1 sentence, it is that “God is Love”. God is in His place where He has always and is watching you, waiting for you, guiding you, smiling down at you.
Just simply look up and smile back. As our father, he holds no grudges and does not judge you on your past. He doesn’t care what you did in the past. True love ignores all that.
I can feel the spirit in you alive and kicking but rather than ask “What do I do?” my humble suggestion would be to ask God “What do you want me to do?”.
Im sure you’ve experience already that it isn’t our willpower that stops us from the “substances” and other addictions, but it is the grace of God that gives us strength to stop what is not right. So give it up to God. Close your eyes, imagine the cross and imagine nailing each of your problems to the Christ.
This is a way of actively letting go and letting Christ take control.
I’m not sure how I can help but I do know that I can pray for you Kathy.